I'm at that point where I'm just tired of everything.
I'm tired of being a moron who wastes a great night out all dressed up with his girlfriend getting shitcanned and announcing to a room full of strangers that, "I'm Spencer and I'm awesome because I have a mohawk!"
I'm sick of busting my ass at Blockbuster effing Video for the last nine months to find out that that transfer they assured me would happen whenever I wanted to move back to Ontario isn't as assured as originally advertised.
I'm pissed that I've spent countless months talking about all the ideas I have for a book and a movie and writing and haven't done shit about it. Not one single word.
I'm grumpy as fuck and d'you know what?
It's about goddamn time too!
Reaching the point of total and utter frustration moves you in one of two ways:
- Prolonged periods of laying on the couch in the fetal position watching old movies and crying
- Sitting at this computer every spare minute I have either trying to find a better job that shilling movies or writing the book / movie that will make me never have to shill another movie ever again.
Schedules. Routine. Habit. Timelines. That is the only way these ideas that have been bouncing around inside my head for the better part of the last year are ever going to become whatever they are meant to become. I just need to sit down and do it.
No more Baseball Mogul 2008.
No more three hour cycles of The Score.
No more laying around watching old movies.
Writing, writing and more writing.
P.S. You don't want to mess with Grumpy... consider yourself warned.