I Live in the State of Flux

It's seems like nothing is settled in my life.

The wedding plans are almost sorted, but not quite. Work is generally good, but the odd day is really craptacular. Website redesigns are screwing up my daily routines. Company is coming on Friday to further screw up my flow.

See - I live in a State of Flux right now and I hate it.

I need regularity.

I crave consistency, routines, schedules, plans.

This idea of things changing regularly being good for you is a lie; things changed a whole bunch of times for me from the time I was born until I turned 27 and it ultimately sucked.

Sure, there were positives and I met new people and saw new places etc. etc. etc. but I could have just as easily stayed where I was, kept the friends I had and things would have been fine.

It wasn't until I stopped flying by the seat of my pants and started to actually take stock of things and figure out where I wanted to end up that my life started going the way I wanted it to.

Now, I have the pieces all laid out before me, but I can't get them all in place just yet.

Too many balls in the air. Too many daily changes and adjustments.

One of these days though, it'll all fall into place...

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Things Are Coming Together

I have to tell you - I'm really liking this new schedule that I'm on.

With Sarah being on days and the canine presence that lives in our room waking up somewhere around 5:30 every day, I generally start my day at around 6:30.

Coffee in one hand, Cool Hand Luke in the other, we walk Sarah to work and head home to truly begin our day. Just like Sarah, we too are still asleep as we walk to the hospital.

From here, things generally fall into a set routine:

• Crossword in the London Free Press
• Upstairs to the Office
• Check both my Hotmail Accounts and my Gmail account
  
• Read Bugs & Cranks
• Change my Fantasy Baseball Lineups
• Check Facebook
• Read ESPN and SI
• Check in here to see if anyone commented
• Quick re-check of Hotmail, Facebook and Gmail
• Sporadically check a couple other sites found in my list
  
• Write for whoever I have to write for that day

All that is usually done before 10 AM, which is just about time to take Luke for his second pee break of the day and when I need to reheat the coffee to get my fix.

By the time noon rolls around, I've generally got everything that I need to have done for the day crossed off the old list and have some time to kick back, watch TV, wrestle with the dog and relax before shipping out to work.

And even work fits into things pretty well.

Gone are the seven and eight hour days of sheer boredom at Blockbuster. In their place are quick 4-5 hour shifts making people laugh and hanging out at Montana's and I have yet to start a shift before 4:30 in the afternoon...

I'm averaging about $10/hour in tips per shift, which really isn't that bad and the violent tendencies that highlighted my time at Blockbuster have subsided. I still get a little pissy from time to time, but it wouldn't be me if I didn't.

Once I'm through the door, it's shower, eat something quick, watch a little TV, do a quicker version of the morning computer routine and battle it out with Luke about getting into his pen to go to bed for the night.

I'm getting seven hours of sleep a night, writing more than I ever have before, enjoy my job and am making extra money on top of my pay cheque.

Life... she's good!

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